The older I get the better I am at listening to my gut. Not just when it says “i need that chocolate” (which it does far too often), but when I feel I’m in a situation that doesn’t sit well with me. 
Whether it’s something to do with the boys or anything else. I’m learning to speak up and not put myself in a position that lends itself to conflict, anger, negativity or me feeling uncomfortable. 
I absolutely suck at confrontation. I hate it. I hate everything that goes along with it. The arguing, the anger, the stress. But sometimes I need to face it because I feel in my gut that something isn’t right. 
It’s happened a few times lately and I feel much better for it. In the past I would not have said anything and I would dwell on what happened or was going to happen. I would feel sick to my stomach, I would feel anxiety, I would feel weak for not standing up for myself or those around me. 
But very slowly I’m learning that I can be a strong person when I have to be and I can’t let others push me around. As Constance Hall would say, I’m a fucking queen!!!
Why can’t everyone just understand one another and get along?? Why must some people always feel the need to argue??
I guess there are so many different types of people in this world and it would be a very boring place if we were all the same huh?
I’m learning to surround myself with people who don’t cast judgment, people who truly listen what I have to say, people who make me feel good about myself, people who inspire me to be a better person, people who know my past and still love me. 
I’m learning that my gut is usually right and I can actually say what I feel (even though that is almost impossible sometimes!) and the world won’t end because i spoke up. 
I need to channel my inner Leo goddess (my star sign, not my son!!) and roar occasionally.